I spent my whole life trying to please everyone I came across...
It hit me hard because I never really succeeded in pleasing anyone...
It was a part of me that I tried hard to let go, but seemed impossible...
It hurt so much, because I tried to please everyone at my own expense...
Couldn't listen to the music I wanted, or be who I wanted...
Felt like I was in a cage without a lock...
I had many dreams and desires, but my life didn't feel like mine...
I tried to give my life totally to God, but my best always felt like my worst...
I was unstable in everything I did...
One moment I felt love, and another, hate. One moment happy, another sad. One moment at peace with myself, another, at war. One moment smiling, and another, crying...
I tried to find the cure fore my disease, which was me...
My emotions began to rule over my life, and strength sunk in its weakness...
It felt like tears held my skin together, and were about to break lose forever...
I began seeking comfort in addictions that never let me go, even when I felt free...
Can anyone hear me out there, because it feels like I am talking to myself!!!
